Friday, January 16, 2009

מודה אני לפניך
מלך חי וקים
שהחזרת בי נשמתי בחמלה
רבה אמונתך
"Modah Ani..."
I give thanks to You,
living and enduring King,
for having compassionately returned my soul to me.
Your faithfulness is so great.
~morning prayer

"Good morning, Asher. Did you say Modeh Ani?"
(My Name is Asher Lev, by Chaim Potok.)


This is the first prayer one says as one wakes up in the morning.
I used to take waking up for granted
and therefore never took this prayer seriously.
Then, I became an Ima.
(And I began to feel very thankful every morning when my boys woke up.)

For the past few nights, Rami has decided only to sleep when I'm holding him.
So, at 5:30 AM, I wake up on the couch, Rami in my arms, to this:

The other morning, I took 10 minutes, saying my "Modeh," and other variations on unspeakable gratitude,
for my beautiful boys,
for a beautiful life,
and for my soul, which is miraculously returned to me,
morning after morning,
to take it all in.

Which was nice.
Because then I had to

get myself dressed.



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